Through taking the time in life to be fully present comes an awareness that influences my ways in a more gratifying way than I have known. In my attachment to the notion that belief and thought will provide what I need I am lost in fact I now realize that I know nothing. I never really did. My search for the ultimate beliefs and ideals only perpetuated a futile search. They no longer play a significant role in determining what I do and how I live. It is not that I actively choose not to follow scientific, religious or cultural teaching. It is that in presence I am more aware of the relative nature of the truth of that kind of knowledge. I am more deeply aware of being; something more about life than my past conditioned ways paid attention to, that emerges through a more unconventional attending to what is.
I no longer need affirmation from others or from adhering to ethical and cultural norms and standards or other outside sources. In presence the energy that fills me in being present here and now is an unprecedented affirmation of life. It allows for more space for compassion and acceptance and when there is an upsetting experience there is more possibility to be fully present to it and to move through it in the realization that it or nothing else is permanent. There have been heavy consequences for human kinds obsession with finding comfort at the expense of avoiding what is. A very natural process is interrupted in this shift. I have been an inseparable part of all the conflict and confusion and have needed to find my way through the neurosis and knots that have been created by it.
There is now, for me, more of an investment in process as opposed to substance and with that there is more connection to an energy filled with life, that is life itself. We are all ultimately a part of this however it is that we act in ways that alienate ourselves from it. There is so much more to be known and attended to in this presence. What we need arises out of this attending and is not a mechanical, fragmented and speculative effort of a mind separated from its source. It fills the experience of perception with vitality and life. It is that.
It’s not that the mind can ever be separated from its source but more that the mind has come to believe in its own ability, cut off from fundamental influences, that are not so easily recognizable by it; never the less that are essential to its existence and functioning. Many an error and horror of human speculation and judgement has been the product of this separation that has been initiated in the name of human advancement and progress.
To address this in oneself it is matter of a learning that brings one to the realisation that the mind is not a power on to itself. In believing so we disregard much of us that is human and that which is eternal. Collectively we have not come to this realisation and because of this there is a fragmented awareness that has led to a looming global crisis.