Taking the time to sit in silence reveals a deeper truth to me. I discover more that is true and worthy of consideration than when my mind is full of thoughts and a sense of knowing. I ask myself what salvation is conventional knowing and thinking bringing to humankind. There seems to be so many promises about what can occur in the future, advances in technology and science that can propel humans forward, but at the same time it is beyond human means and human awareness to address the violence and insanity that occurs every day on our planet. And time seems to be running out to do so. We claim to know amazing things but what do we know about ourselves . Not everything can be known from human thought and through the conventional human methods of looking and seeing as we sometimes assume. There may be limits to what we can correct and resolve through the use of rational thought and maybe there is more to our problems that has to do with not knowing ourselves. Maybe we are not seeing what we must come to know and understand in ourselves. Ironically now more than ever we are more drawn to a rational and scientific way of life and how we should be and what we should know. The mystery and wonder of life, that in the past has been revealed in art, poetry and spiritual exploration is becoming lost to a more rational mechanical processing.
There is an experiential awareness that I experience in taking the time to look in an inner way that suggests that there is a knowing through unknowing. Krishnamurti states in his book in discussion with the physicist David Bohm ” The Limits of Thought” that “when the mind is empty, when the mind is nothing, not a thing, than there is perception”. Thinking can be a barrier to seeing the truth.
In my own experience the reliance on our conventional ways including our ways of understanding are conditioned. In that conditioning something is lost. In sitting and taking the time to look in silence this reliance is relaxed and what emerges from beyond the veil of conditioning is a sense of what I truly am, what I was born into life as. In Zen it is referred to as “My Original Face”. There is a wisdom that is acquired in turning to this way of seeing that enables a differentiation between what my conditioned self is and what I authentically am. The limitations of the separate self are seen with greater clarity and there is a humility and acceptance of my own limitation and that of others that develops in the naked, authentic and open entity that I have become. Compassion comes from this place. In letting go of striving, becoming and desire as I have known it to dominate me there is a seeing that the world that we have created is a reality, but that its realness is a consequence of a collection of conditioned selves that inhabit it.
The world that is a creation of a conditioned reality may not be able to withstand the consequences of this fragmented consciousness that is the reality. We are inseparable from this earth but we act as if it is an object; an unlimited resource here for our self fixated indulgence. In the end the responsibility is with each of us to see beyond the reality that we have created to a place of deeper connection with the planet and all else that exists on it and quite possibly at this point in time it is too late to change our ways and it could be that a positive outcome would have to occur as an act of grace.